The differences between then and now in going through fertility treatments:
I didn’t know what to expect; ignorance is bliss sometimes people
I didn’t have anyone to talk to or who understood what I was going through-that was super rough. I now have a great circle of support who knows so much and we help each other tremendously. (esp you Dorie if you are reading this! I love you buddy!)
Ironically we had plenty of money and not a single debt the first time around and this time we are flat broke- aren’t you supposed to gain more wealth as you get older, not the opposite?
I had freedom to make the trips to the doctors weekly (some weeks 7 days); this time God has been on our side but there is going to be conflict sooner or later with finding sitters last minute (many thanks to my neighbors, Stephanie, and Katy)
Again I had the freedom to be lazy and rest; I won’t have that luxury this time around with the sleepless nights of stress and the early drives to the doctor not to mention the monsters.
Last time we had what it took to go the distance until it worked; this is our one and only shot
The emotions are far worse this time. I’m not sure if it’s my age, only having one shot, or just knowing the risks but I’m much more emotional
We didn’t know how our life would change with a baby (babies) but this time we know and that makes all of this worth it!
I’m sure there are more but this is a good list. I’m grateful that we get to do this again and I’m hopeful.
Thank you to all who are strong in your support and love! We need it especially since the girls want me to have a ton of babies and name them Emily, Megan and Spiderman.
My bestie bud found this on Pinterest and sent it to me knowing H would just love it as she is obsessed with orange. This is so great and makes me so happy every time I see it! Thanks Aunt Tammy!!! We love you!
After she sent this I couldn’t help but think about how unique this little girl is. She is always so kind but had a total melt down with the full moon the other day (or so I’m guessing that’s why). She got in so much trouble and was just the opposite of her usual self and ended up falling asleep in my arms crying.
As I was looking through my phone I noticed an array of her personality that just made me smile.
First is her love of orange.
She was putting her clothes away but look at all that orange
Second is her love of Spiderman and all boy stuff. As she was trying on masks telling me who they were I was dumbfounded. I had no idea who these super heroes were.
Guess who picked out which gift after big ol’ shot day at the dr?
snuggled so tightly in her spiderman hooded blanket
And lastly just how much she loves. She loves with all her heart and more. She is a girl who knows what she likes and has determination. She held onto this box of band aides for dear life. I hate to admit it she wore me down. I just kept thinking that anyone who fights so hard for something they love, even an $.88 box of superhero band-aides well….she deserved it.
Keep fighting for love and convictions my dear H, it will serve you well!
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What a great day so far. It started last night with a solid, strong sleep! No little visitors and only one dog in bed. Ahhh it’s AMAZING what an undisturbed night will do for the body and mind. I woke … Continue reading →